The hard part is finding that someone....
Just a little forewarning... this post will be all on a rant, its just been one of those days.
Let's just say when I pictured my life at 26 years old, it wasn't me still single and living in student housing. I figured by now I would have settled down and popped out at least a child. I can honestly say I have never been further away from settling down than I am today. I am soo burnt out on this whole dating game and am just so disappointed in the male race of this generation. After all the dates I've been on the past 2 months, I find myself thinking I am probably better off staying single and providing for myself, than placing my life and future children's lives in these guys' hands. I know that's really mean to say, but honestly... not a one of them have proven that they can step up to the plate. In the past 2 months I have been on 10 first dates, and have been stood up by 3 other guys. And after all these dates, today I decided I'm officially burnt out.
I am so burnt out on having the same conversation with a different guy everyday. "Where are you from? What did you study? Where do you work? What do you want to do with your degree? What's your favorite [insert anything]." It just gets old and tiresome. And I know I have to have these conversations in order to get to know someone and to lead to a relationship that will potentially lead to a marriage. But I just wish I could bypass it all and just already be best friends. Also, I'm sick of having these conversations, thinking that a guy could potentially be someone good and they turn out to be the scum of the earth just looking for a hook up. I'm gonna be 26, I'm over the hook up stage. I want a real relationship. Someone I can connect with on all levels and have an intellectual conversation with. Someone I can tell my stupid secrets too and they are going to listen and share with me.
I would just like to know where the normal people hang out. The ones that have ambition for their lives. The ones who know that at the age of 26 they need to be moved out of mom and dad's house. The ones who realize that a part time job is not going to provide for a family. The ones that are actively trying to make their life better rather than wasting it away with video games. I just feel like the guys these days are so lazy. I am taking my time each and every day to make myself a better person physically, mentally, and spiritually. And I am not interested in investing my time into a counterpart who is not willing to do the same. I don't think I deserve the creame of the crop, but I definitely deserve to be treated as more than just an option.
So until a guy can prove to me that he really wants me around, that I'm not just another name in his phone or another random make out session, then I am not going to be wasting my time. I'm sick of dating, and at this point in my life I think it may almost be easier to pursue my law degree and provide a good life for myself. I know Heavenly Father has promised me someone and I am doing all I can to keep my covenants with him in order to receive this promised gift. But I deserve to be treated better than I have by these men as of lately.
